A Fun Day At Sandy Beach

Mama and Lillie
Tonys younger sisters Alisha and Danielle and me
Tonys cousins son Owen:) isnt he presious
Auntie Alisha (one of tonys younger sisters)and Addison
Lillie and Trinity playing in the sand (Alishas daughter)
Some of the little kiddies
Dylan tonys cousins son with kawika jr
aww I love this picture
Me and Trin
Addison loves the water
Anthony
Lillie girl actually sitting in the sand :) her auntie got her warmed up to it and now she loves it.
Kawika with his handsome mow hawk

My Heart Broke............

As I sat in the ER waiting room at Childrens Hospital in Oakland with my mom and Anthony I thought I was only there for my son. As a young teenage girl walked in with what I thought was her mother,I watched as a nurse came out to do some interesting paper work with the lady with this little girl.This young teenage girl and I made eye contact 3-4 times while in the waiting room and then she was called back to be seen about 10 minutes went by and anthony was called back.We were placed in a room with another person and it was with the young teenage girl and this lady.....the doctor came in shut the certain and started to talk to this young lady and it was then I heard a life story was not prepared to here this was what I heard.....as I sat next to her on the other side of the curtain no more then 3 feet away telling the doctor she ran away and ran into 3 guys and started to drink alcohol and took 3 ecctasy pills and smoked weed the night before and was found by someone who called 911 by a bush on a street she didnt know...Then the doctor asked "how long have you been in foster care"? my mom and I started to cry at the fact that we felt her pain when she said "since 1999" 12 years this young girl has went from foster care home to foster care home for her whole life.Then she was asked how come you were taken from your mom and this was here reply"because my moms boyfriend abused me when I was 2 years old" The doctor looked to the lady who was a social worker and said "does she have placement to go home to tonight?" and the answer was " no she does not..but will in the morning".As the doctor left and the social worker asked her how her sister was and she replied with"she is back in jail for braking into a home and stealing and she is pregnant" the social worker replied with"wait I just wrote the judge to get her out a month ago after getting in trouble for prostituting!she is back in?" long story short this young girl has 5 other siblings all in foster care but 2 who were adopted by a family and her sister that I was writing about is only 15 yrs old and alot more was said between the social worker and her and it just broke my heart in a way I can't even explain. As the night went on my mom and I talked to this preious 14 year old we had the oppurtunity to encourage her with Christ and she shared with us that she has never felt wanted in any foster home and that her foster parents bio children were treated and are treated so much better:( she shared that she hates being without a family to love and care for her and she told us that she doesn't want to be adopted unless she knows for sure that the family truly wanted her and was going to love her the way she know she wants and knows should be loved.
As it was time to leave for us, we gave her a hug and 1 hug turned into 2 and 2 into 3 from each of us and the hugs were the kind of hugs where you are going to leave someone for along time...she hugged us back as though she has knew us for years! she was presious and I wanted to take her home with me so bad and I just wanted to tell her God sees her life and treasures her and wants her to have a new life through his saving grace.That is why I thank God for allowing me to keep seeing the beauty of adoption and how this young teenag girls life is sad and as there is no hope but it could be so diffrent like God choosing to save us and us choosing to saving these presious children from there sad stories they have to tell and showing them the life of loving familys like the loving family we have into Gods family and that they can have a life story to tell like we all do about how we were hopeless in our sin until God saved us.
My husband and I have persued adoption as far as going to our first introduction class to getting our finger prints done to filing a exemption and God made it very clear that Adoption is not for us at this time and possilbly never will be.We dont know what Gods plan is for our family but what we do know is that Gods ways are perfect and like the bible says his ways are not our ways and although it might have seemed like it was right, well it was not for us.The reason I say all this is because I know the Lord is going to use us to do something He knows is best for us and meeting this young lady in the ER made me desire to possibly mentor these kids in foster care they need mentors as well as adoptive families.I want to be praying about this because I want what God wants for my life. The Lord has also opened doors even though he has closed some.
This young lady was given our phone numbers by us so that hopefully she will call as she said she promised she would. Its amazing what God puts in your life to see and hear and we may not know why at the time but we just know to trust God because its not in vain.I felt that this was reality for all these foster children and it was reality that we dont even know or see because we have no clue at all and I honestly didnt even know until I actually heard it out of this young girls own mouth it was heart breaking. It was like a good slap in my face and not in a bad way I just was thankful to God for allowing me to be in the same room as this young girl and for allowing me to talk to her so that my heart can grow to be tender for these sweet children longing to belong and to be loved.

Anthony's Hospital Stay At Childrens Hospital

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This picture was when we were driving down to oakland on friday he didnt feel good at all.

I took Anthony into the doctor on friday because he had a rash on his face and swelling(found out it was staph infection) under his chin and the doctor who is not his normal ped said he has impetigo and was not sure about the swelling under his chin. he didnt like the look of the swelling and redness and gave Anthony a shot of antibiotics and asked me to take him to the ER at Childrens Hospital in Oakland.So my mom and I did and headed to Oakland when we got there they took a look at him and gave me 2 different meds one for his face and the other for his swelling!They sent us home and told us to come back in the morning for a re-evaluation or if it got worse in the middle of the night to come back.That night I gave him his 2nd dose of meds and in the morning gave him his 3rd dose of meds and he was worse then the night before and he was still not playing or eating and all he was doing was laying around like the day before which is not normal for Anthony at all.Tony and I drove back to Oakland and had one doctor that we didnt feel comfortable with and felt she was was not looking to the best interest of our son so we asked for another doctor to come look at our son and this doctor felt Anthony needed to be admitted into the hospital.So they admitted him and put a IV in and started antibiotics because the meds he was on at home where not working at all.

We were there from the 12th - 15th (3 nights 4 days) It was not until yesterday morning that the swelling showed some improvement thats after 11 IV antibiotic doses and then today he was totally my Anthony again.I am so thankful to God he is okay and that they didnt have to cut it to drain or anything like that and Iam thankful for the comfort He gives our family when we have enexpected hospital stays.God shows his greatness and his through our friends and family who are there to encourage us and pray for our family and show they care and sometimes thats a call to see how we are doing or a delious meal or coming to see us in the hospital or watching our kiddies so that tony can go to work while Iam with one of my children in the hospital.So thank you to all of the special people who care

Talk about trying to keep a getting better boy busy in a little hospital area

One of Anthonys nurses coloring with him while I had went and got lunch.

Anthony was playing play station! Yes they have play stations at the hospital lol

Wow after being there for 4 days he actually became a doctor lol

NEW POST UNDER "SPRING TIME FUN POST"

Spring Fun

Well I think its gunna be a fun summer with all the neighbor kiddies!They really are a joy to have over.

Lillie girl eating a popcycle

The first day with our pool up and the kiddies are all so excited including a little guy that lives across the street from us he is a year older than anthony and is a real sweetie pie .

WE MOVED.....

In February we moved to this home!We wanted to find a home that was bigger with more space incase Gods will for our family was to adopt.We wanted to be prepared for what God was going to do in our family,This home has came as a huge blessing to our family and I do believe it was Gods will for us to rent this home.

I had seen this home in the paper and mentioned it to my husband that this home was twice the size of the home we were living in that was 1,300sq and that this home was 2,400sq and it was only 25 dollars more a month.Yeah......crazy well he didnt seem interested as he figured someone proably already is renting it for the price. So 2 weeks had went by and it was still in the paper and so i had called and got a application and we went to look at this home.well long story short we were more then out of the list of people with the manager and well he called 2 days later and asked if we wanted the house and lets just say we were blown away at the fact that we new without a shadow of a doubt we were not going to get this home......lets just say God had other plans for us and that was to rent this home that we now find so peaceful to live in.Some fun extras that we find to be a HUGE blessing is we have 3 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms , a play room, and a office where we do schooling. God is so good to us when we dont even deserve it at all and he is so awsome to let us rent this home.

We were able to have Easter with my moms side of family shortly after my grandpa passed away and it was such a blessing to gather together to celebrate Jesus Christ and comfort eachother at the same time.