Special Christmas!!

This Christmas was extra special to our family!We were able to celebrate our first Christmas with my new niece and nephew!I remember last year just waiting and thinking they would be here for Christmas it wasn't Gods timing.I had collected so much stuff for these sweet little children! I had no idea what they looked like let alone if they would be boys or girls or one of each I just new I loved them and couldn't wait for the day they would come into there new forever family and here we were this year with the sweet little pumpkins!YEAH.....to me its like with any new born child and there first Christmas there is just something special about that Christmas!I loved seeing them on this beautiful day:)opening gifts and there sweet smiles and the excitement in them and simply just seeing them!and knowing they were finally here and celebrating with there family!
What I find so neat is that when my sister and her hubby first started the adoption process I seen God changing there hearts and softening them to and I would think to myself wow God sure is working in there hearts and I thought the change was just for them!God has not only been working in my sister and her hubby's and there kids hearts he has been working in my family's hearts as well through there adoption!God has showed us the importance of what adoption truly is and the fact that we were adopted into his family!When you understand the beauty of adoption through His adopting us then you cant help but to know you are called to adopt his orphans weather its through supporting and encouraging a mother who just adopted and needs encouragement,giving money or like our dear sister in Christ at church making quits or adopting children!
How ever God is calling us we are open to what he wants from us in helping serve him!I just feel blessed to be part of my sister and brother in laws adoption and the blessings in fact the many blessings that God has Gaven our whole family through this adoption!
I saying all this we had a blessed day! My mother loves serving and so this is what she did all day long was served her family.My sister and her cozy self made all of us really yummy peppermint lattes and she even showed me how to make them(later to find out she gave me a gift of all the things needed to make theses yummy things)I love family and I love being with them they bless my heart!The kids had alot of fun and its always a joy to see the kids running up and down Nana and papas stairs playing in there nice Christmas outfits!they are making memories that will always be there when they grow up and I think that's always so much fun to look back on.

I want to be like you daddy!!

So Tony has been off on Sundays lately and has been able to attend church with us!On Sundays Tony always gets Anthony ready for church(Its a man thing I guess) I guess I only know how to get him ready everyday but Sundays when Tony is off(one of the 4 days he is off) !I have no idea whats going on there hee hee!So anyway Anthony is always watching his daddy get ready when he is off and for the last week while Tony has been at work Anthony has been getting ready the way daddy gets ready!Anthony has been getting daddy's gel out and has been what Anthony calls it "spicing" his hair like daddy does (spike) would be adult language for this process of doing hair :~) like daddy he gets the blow dryer out and dries the spiked gel hair!Then Anthony has been putting on his daddy's deodorant and after shave as well.I think its so precious it is to see him looking up to his daddy and wanting to be just like him!Anthony wants to be with his daddy every second of the day when he knows his daddy is off ! We have this thing between tony and I because when Tony is off Anthony always says"Iam daddy's baby boy" but when Tony's at work Anthony says " mommy Iam your baby boy" Yeah...... little stinker !


Something I pray is that God will give him the same desire to seek the Lord the same way he seeks his earthly daddy some day!and more so that God will continue to work in our family so that we can be a Godly example for our children to see each and everyday!





I wanted to share this song that is so precious and my sister was the one who had told me about it.I thought it was so precious!Its called " I want to be just like you" by Phillips Craig and Dean.



He climbs in my lap for a goodnight hug
He calls me Dad and I call him Bub
With his faded old pillow and a bear named Pooh
He snuggles up close and says, "I want to be like you"
I tuck him in bed and I kiss him goodnight
Trippin' over the toys as I turn out the light
And I whisper a prayer that someday he'll see
He's got a father in God 'cause he's seen Jesus in me
Lord, I want to be just like You'Cause he wants to be just like me
I want to be a holy example
For his innocent eyes to see
Help me be a living Bible, Lord
That my little boy can read
I want to be just like You 'Cause he wants to be like me
Got to admit I've got so far to go
Make so many mistakes and I'm sure that You know
Sometimes it seems no matter how hard I try
With all the pressures in life I just can't get it all right
But I'm trying so hard to learn from the best
Being patient and kind, filled with Your tenderness'Cause I know that he'll learn from the things that he sees
And the Jesus he finds will be the Jesus in me
Right now from where he stands I may seem mighty tall
But it's only 'cause I'm learning from the best Father of them all


"Fathers,do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.
Ephesians 6:4

ADDISON AND HIPPY THE RAT

I think Hippy likes Addison's orange juice lol ! My daughter loves animals with a passion!I do love animals to and totally loved them at Addisons age!My parents always had animal for us when me and my sister were young and I enjoyed having them to play with.I had a rat when I was little and loved him!I do believe we will be putting Addison in 4H in a couple of years!This girl had owned 2 lab mixes and a rabbit and 3 baby chickens and fish that she put in my garbage disposal when she was 2 I never new they were in there until later that day when I had turned it on 3 or 4 times lol and she told me "fishy mama" and pointed to the sink!Ya...... I found where they were after looking everywhere :~) I remember her always getting a chair and if I was in the other room she was in the kitchen putting her snacks in the tank along with pennies or what ever she could find lol! Oh and the best was when she stuck her chicken in a KFC box and wanted it shut!I was very tempted to send the picture of her into KFC.


So now we have 1 doggy(we think she is prego) 1 Guinea pig, 1 fish that killed 10 others, and 2 rats The other animals that I had mentioned had to be given away and well the chickens got ate by our next door neighbors dog.

I thought these pictures were cute and I wanted to share them with you just for fun:)

Luggage For Foster Children!!

So after a sweet women from our church made and gave my sister over 65 handmade quilts from several women to be taken to our local CPS for foster children when they are taken from the home in the social service cars to be put in foster care!My sister's family delivered them today and I know she will be posting so that's all Ican say:) well I couldn't help but to think to myself "Lord how can I do more to help these precious foster children waiting for forever families"This is so close to home for me and after seeing Marilyn give those sweet and precious quilts to my sister I had to come home today from Lillie's therapy and look up the needs for children in the foster system and I came across another post on the same adoption site I has posted about"Should you Adopt?" and I read it and I want to start collecting luggage! and what this women had to say really touched my heart because when my niece and nephew came into there new home well several days later Wendy had picked up there belongings from the foster home they had been living and in one black trash bag was there clothing and in another black bag was there toys! I was thinking it doesnt have to be luggage Iam thinking even just hand bags that are like overnight bags or even duffel bags!Just something other then grocery bags or trash bags!

Foster children have to move fairly frequently. Some are lucky and don’t have to move often, but that’s not normally the case.
Many foster kids move with their things packed in garage bags, grocery bags, or whatever happens to be handy. I hate this, and I know many other people do as well. What a horrid message to send a child. Your life is garbage. You are garbage. You’re not worthy.
Sammy came with some of his things in suitcases, but most of it was in garbage bags, some things not packed and at all and so on. When Kory came, everything that he owned fit into a bag about the size of a garbage bag, but came from a retail chain around here called Fleet Farm. If you live in the Midwest you know that big orange back that I’m talking about. Hannah was a different story. She came with her life nicely packed. Love was put into this move. She helped to pack her things so it was done nicely.
When Kory and Mackenzie moved from our home, I very lovingly packed all their things into luggage. They were not going to move with their things in trash bags. They were worth more than that to me. I became very angry when I learned that my cousin’s wife dumped all their things into trash bags because it was “easier to pack into the car” and kept the luggage for herself. (Yes, I have blogged about my dysfunctional family before).
I’m not the only one who feels this way. details of how you can organize a collection for foster children just by A quick internet search will tell you where you can donate luggage, how to organize a drive, or what types of things you can donate. I love this headline from a commentary in Kentucky:
“Kids have baggage, they need luggage.”
Whether you call them bags, suitcases, luggage, or anything else, donate them to a foster child.

Sammy still has a hard side suitcase that was used when he moved here. I would never throw it out or donate it. It means a lot to him. He can’t verbalize why, but the fact that I know it’s important is what matters. It will be his whenever he moves out on his own as an adult.
Many social service agencies will accept donations of luggage or suitcases to help kids have appropriate things for packing their clothes and toys. If you have luggage that you do not need but it is still in good condition, consider donating it to a foster child or agency.
If you don’t know how or where to donate luggage, call your local social services agency. Do not just show up with a car load of bags. Most agencies do not have enough room to store what you might show up with. Be sure to ask first.
If you want to take things one step further, you can take a key from this article from Capital University. They took the luggage and hand painted it. They did the same thing in Decatur, Alabama.
Help a child move with dignity by organizing a drive, or making your own donation.

Thanksgiving at my grandparents cabin !!!

Were all about to eat some very yummy food :)We enjoyed being with eachother!
I love this picture of the clouds and the snow!

This is my grandparents cabin

Daddy and Anthony riding the dirt bike in the snow while it was snowing and boy were they all wet when they were done!

Lillie also wanted to ride with her daddy and it was so funny cause she got off and her little nose was so red from the cold!

Snow fight with uncle Tony

Kawika and Tony blessed us all by making us breakfast and they even did the dishes to!or should I say they didnt let me in the kitchen lol so I thought I would just take a picture of them doing what I wanted to help do but it was a blessing to relax!

Some of the kiddies eating there Thanksgiving dinner!

Dad and mom playing cribage together and Kawika enjoying the snow falling!oh and so was the little one in the back!

Can Tabs For Sick Kids !!!!!

So I wanted to share something with you that is one of the things Iam very passionate about!To me its like with anything really!If God has allowed you to have gone through something that affects your family It has a big impression in you life and heart!whether its Adoption,family member with cancer, A loved one dieing,losing a job and so on!One thing I Thank God for is that had we not gone through something like our child being sick how could we encourage or even understand what one has gone through? Before I had Lillie I never thought twice when I seen a child in a wheel chair or a parent walking with a child with physical problems ext !I would just think too myself "Awe" and would avoid because I felt uncomfortable because I had no idea what to say thinking I wouldn't have the right words to say!I cared but just didn't grasp the whole understanding of a medically special child! but now that I have Lillie and have gone through alot with her I actually love to start a conversation with parents when I see that there child is medically special! I want to be able to possibly share Christ if I have the opportunity and plus it is nice to relate with others .I find myself feeling what that parent may be feeling:)All the stress of a sick child and all the effort it takes to care for a sick child defiantly something our family have all made it through with Christ and him alone!God taught us so much and gave us everything we needed to make it through and to still make it through each day!He is always faithful when we for a moment take our eyes off him and thank God We where surrounded by great family and friends that had been so encouraging to our family He is so very faithful to us :) So here is a little info on what my title of the post is all about:)

Many families travel far from home to get treatment for their seriously ill or injured children. The treatment may last a day, a month, or even longer. It's a long time to be away from home, or to divide a family.
Ronald McDonald Houses around the world offer families a way to stay together, in proximity to the treatment hospital, and be comfortable and cared for during their stay.
Allow Families are stronger when they are together, which helps in the healing process. By staying at a Ronald McDonald House, parents can also can better communicate with their child’s medical team and keep up with complicated treatment plans when needed.
Allow Children to Get the Best Care
When your child is sick, you want the best care possible - even if it is hundreds or thousands of miles away. The Ronald McDonald House allows families to access specialized medical treatment by providing a place to stay at little or sometimes no cost.

Can tabs for kids and there family!

Why?
Ronald McDonald Houses collect pop tabs instead of entire aluminum cans because the tabs are pure high-quality aluminum, unlike cans, which consist of aluminum and other alloys. Tabs are also easier to store than whole cans.
Where?
If your local Ronald McDonald House participates in the program, it’s likely cardboard collection containers in the shape of a house have been distributed to schools, community and civic groups and other organizations in your area. Collect pop tabs to drop off at one of these areas, or contact your local House about getting a collection container that you can be responsible for filling through one of your own groups.
How much?
After the tabs are collected, the local RMHC Chapter brings the collection to local recycling centers, where they are weighed to determine their value (values can vary significantly). The recycling center then sends the local RMHC Chapter a check for the total value.
RMHC at Work
Twelve new Ronald McDonald Houses opened in 2007. Thirty-four more are undergoing expansion.
Here is the site link
http://rmhc.org/

SHOULD YOU ADOPT

Tony and I have been very encouraged seeing my sister and our brother in law adopting the two little ones and just watching the whole process from the day we found out they would be adopting has been one of the biggest blessings I have seen in my life!The day these little ones came into there new family was one of the best days of our lives!For me it was no different then the excitement when Kalani and Kawika were first born.These babies are precious to us and we have seen the blessing of adoption and we have seen the reality of adoption as well!It has been so neat to walk the adoption journey with my brother in law and sister and I couldn't imagine my life without all my nieces and nephews!So in saying this tony and I have been talking alot about adopting lately and we have been praying about it and we are are waiting on the Lord to see if this is his will for our family!I did come across a adoption site a while back and came across this women talking about ''Should you adopt" when we were first wondering if this was something the Lord wanted for our family and I really liked what she had said !!

Throughout our journey to adopt our sons from the foster care system we have encountered many people who, in conversation, volunteer their lists of reasons why they cannot adopt. I am often surprised at how many of these people are Christian. They will tell us how wonderful they think we are because we “saved” our kids. They tell us that we are special, that it takes a special person to adopt. They tell us that they don’t have enough money, enough space, enough time to adopt. They even tell us that they don’t feel “called” to help, to adopt these kids. I cringe at the mere suggestion that one could be excluded from the call to help the orphans.

James 1:27 says “Pure and undefiled Religion before God and the Father is this:to visit orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unspotted from the world.” I think this verse is often overlooked by the Christian community. To me, there are very few ways to interpret this statement. There are over 100 million children in the world who are orphans. In the US there are more than 150,000 children at any given moment who have been waiting some time to have a forever family. Our oldest son waited ten years. I look at him and at the pain he endured and ask myself where we as Christians are in all of this. What is our role? Does this passage in James tell us to look away? Does Jesus ever ask us to focus on our own comfort?

So often our desire for children is centered around our own wants, our own needs, our own ideas of what family should be. We focus on what it is we want and discard what it is that God wants. I really, really want the baby growing inside of me to be a girl. It is a bit ridiculous how badly I want this baby to be a girl. But no matter how hard I wish for a girl and no matter how much pink I buy, this baby will be whomever God wants it to be. I cannot request a healthy child with beautiful blue eyes. I cannot request a child who is easy to get along with, one who brings joy and peace wherever she goes. I can’t request that she be slender and tall. The only option I have is to trust that the Lord is leading our family and that He will bring us the child He means for us to have. In the same way, I cannot ask that He rearrange His word to suit my desires. Caring for the orphan is hard, hard work. Adoption will never be easy for any of us. It is an amazing blessing but at the root, there is heartache for someone, often most of all for our child. I cannot run from the call to care for the orphan because it is hard. I cannot run from it because it isn’t convenient. I cannot accept the excuses that my mind creates and allow them to turn me from pushing forward toward the call my Father has laid out for me. I must read this verse and make it my mantra. I must know in my heart that a call from God is never put forth lightly. He doesn’t mince His words. We are all called to care for the kids who hearts ache with the loneliness of waiting to be loved. Don’t ask yourself IF you are called to these kids, ask HOW you can fulfill the calling God our Father has set forth. Then pursue your calling to help the orphans in their distress. It is true that not all of us can adopt for a variety of very valid reasons. So help the orphan in another way. Find your state’s photolisting of children who are waiting for a family. Print out a picture of a child or children who wait. Hang them on your fridge and pray for them daily. Pray for the family who will be matched with that child. Find a reputable Christian organization that offers child sponsorship and add a child to your family in that way. Find an adoptive family that could use some childcare and step up to the plate. So often, so many of us are tired and weary and don’t want to ask someone to take on the task of watching our difficult children. Go to your local Children’s Home and volunteer your time to read to children who have been brought in from abusive situations. Go to the store and buy a pile of diapers and deliver them to the mom who just brought her beautiful bundle of joy home from China. Send a note to a child in your church who was just adopted welcoming him or her into your church family. There are a million and one ways to care for the orphan. There are just as many ways to care for adoptive parents. Decide HOW you can be a part of God’s call to the orphan, and then pursue that task with your heart invested. We are ALL called.

Big Changes For Our Lillie Girl :)

Well in case some of you may not know Little miss Lillie has attended speech and physical and occupational therapy since the age of 4 1/2 months old!We drive twice a week to these therapies and it is there that Lillie started out learning to eat Kelly is who has been with her since the beginning this precious lady has been such a sweet blessing in our lives!She loves Lillie like her very own and I mean that!In fact we actually have built a friendship with her through the 2 1/2 years we have been going to therapy with Lillie girl.Kelly has worked with Lillie and has helped her in alot of ways!She has taught her how to eat better and that took probably a good year and a half of training her mouth and strengthening the muscles in her mouth and has taught her to talk to the best of her ability in bribing her with food lol ! Kelly knows Lillie well and knows how to get her to do what is asked of her Kelly has been stern but gentle and that's what I love about Kelly.

Therapy has been our life in a sense that it was 4 times a week as of 3 months ago and it got put to 3 days a week!It is the first thing my older children ask me when they wake up"mommy do we have therapy today?" We do school there and Kelly put toys out in the waiting room for my kids:) Our kids are the only ones that come there because they turned the children's north bay rehab into a adult therapy place.Actually it was a children's place and they had shut it down because of the economy and they had to let all the kids go and I mean all the kids parents had to find new places for there children to go.It was really sad to see all the parents you related with and could talk to and encourage go away. Kelly actually couldn't let 8 of her kids go and told her boss that she wanted to please keep these kids and so Lillie was one of them she had chose to keep!and actually Lillie is her last child of the 8 she wanted to keep the others have been discharged from therapy.

So we actually have a place called Regional center that took over paying for Lillie's therapies1Its a government benefit to parents with children with disabilities and it doesn't matter what your income is its because of the disabilities the child has that qualifies the child.well after 3 years old they don't cover any more because the school district takes over and well November 30th is our very last day with Kelly!Lillie turns 3 on the 27Th of this month and I cant tell you how hard it has been for me the last 2 weeks to say good by to Kelly and seeing her 2 times a week and its just weird to me to think that going to fairfeild to therapy is not going to be part of our life any more!When we first brought Lillie in she was 4 1/2 months and 7 pounds and had a NG tube in her nose and was so tiny and sick looking.She is now 3 and weights 21 pounds and is still small but is full of life and Iam so thankful to be able to go back to that time when she was sick and then to today.

I know that change is good for Lillie it means she is moving on and going forward and I know it is good.It means that she doesn't qualify in disabilities and that's great!this means development is doing better and that physically getting a little stronger so I thank God for that.

December 2nd we meet with her regional worker to have a transition meeting because they feel it would be good if Lillie went to the preschool for children with development delays at the public school in our town!They feel that it will challenge her to be around other children and that being around other kids her age would encourage her to do things she may not know how to do in her development!So this little squirt might just be going to preschool starting in January! So we will see what happens.

Iam very iam very excited to see what God has planned for this baby girl!Its exciting to see her moving on and sad at the same time.I cant think of dropping off Lillie at school then picking her up.So I think God is doing something in all these new changes and Iam thankful for that.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and hope.

Jeremiah 29:11-12

NORMAL YET ?

So our family of 5 was sick for a total of two weeks with every symptom you can think of !I have never been so sick in my whole life it was not fun at all and I hope I never ever get it again! Iam sure we had swine flu at least that's what the doctor told Tony we all had.We went through 2 bottles of fever reducer for the kids 1 bottle of extra strength Tylenol and 1 bottle of NyQuil:)Oh and 4 boxes of tissue nuts ha!!!We also went through a total of 5 gallons of apple juice and 2 litters of 7up!I think we checked our temps over a hundred times lol:)I do thank God though for allowing us to get better in our comfort of home and that none of us ended up in the hospital.We were blessed enough that we could hook Lillie up each night with pedialyte to keep her hydrated and that in fact was a huge blessing in its self because we were able to put her meds through her tube as well and Lillie and Anthony were actually the ones that were least sick out of us 5.
Although we were sick we were so encouraged by family and friends that took care of us the best way they could without putting there own family at risk of getting sick. We had meals made for us for most of the time we were sick!
I actually had a sister in Christ call me a week into being sick and she is the one who organizes meals for others with our church when families are in need and well she ask if we needed any meals and you know what I had the nerve to say to her " No we are actually feeling alot better" I know she must have thought I was crazy as all heck to say that and the thing was YES I was crazy and what is really funny is that this lovely women is a family doctor so Iam sure she was seriously thinking CRAZY WOMEN. I actually thinking that I didn't want people driving all the way from vacaville to drop off a meal to us!What I was not thinking of was the fact that I was robbing others of blessing our family in a time of need and I was infact being prideful:( YUCK!!!!! I was feeling better then what I had been feeling but I was far from feeling better lol.
So knowing what I had said God quickly humbled me and I called her back and told her "I was sorry and that our family in deed could use meals. looking back I was not feeling great at all.
We were so blessed and I can not explain how much we needed meals!It allowed us to heal and get rest without stressing about food for ourselves and the kids!It was so encouraging to our hearts because everyone was taking care of us when we really couldn't and everyone really helped us to get better! SO WE SAY THANK YOU AND WE LOVE YOU!!!!

We do feel normal again and I actually forgot what it felt like feel normal again.The Lord has allowed me to have the energy to get the whole house back to standing lol I mean I must have done 13 loads of clothes,blankets,sheets ext from being sick and all that good stuff.My hubby is back to work and he actually missed 4 days of work!Someone from his work signed up for over time and actually called my hubby and told him he could have his over time day if he would like since he missed 4 days of work and so my hubby took it. I tell you what talk about trusting God in the mist of the "not knowing" God always provides no matter what and Iam so thankful to Him for that. My hubby was also able to cash in 2 pch's (personal choice holiday) and thankfully he had them to cash in.

We are also trying to get caught up on Addison's schooling since she was out for 2 weeks!So my sis reminded me that our charter school has a week off for thanksgiving so we are going to just work right through that week and then there is time off in December to so we are going to work through that week as well:)Iam telling you God is faithful to see us through everthing even when we dont see our way through something like being sick for 2 weeks.I cant help but thank God that we can see God and his blessings in them even in times of trials!

I just had to post the picture of Addison because it kinda reminded me of myself and how I felt when I was sick :)

The blessings of being sick !!!

So along with my last post "FEAR" my Little Lillie girl is sick along with her mommy!She has the fever, cough, and you got it .... the poopy to:)Today Anthony woke up from his nap with a fever as well and now we are just waiting to see if Addison and Daddy will be joining us this week as we celebrate being sick with all our meds and tissues lol!!Addison has informed me that " she is so glad she is not sick"I told her " Don't be surprised if you get sick sweet heart" she just smiled and said "okay mommy" I know she doesn't want to get sick and she really feels bad for us she has been drawing pictures for all of us and wanted to have a surprise party to make Anthony feel better:)Anthony is her side kick and its interesting to see one of them down because they are two peas in a pod.


It never fails though that when I get sick like this I always have to thank God for my health and that my sickness is only for a time!I have to think of those people who's sickness is not just for a short time.

My husband started his 4 days off to taking care of his sick family:)Iam so thankful to the Lord he allowed my hubby to be off and not needing to take days off to take care of us.

As you can see in the picture my husband has been hard at cleaning and taking care of his sick family!He has been taking our temps,giving us meds and making sure we have been getting the rest we need to get all better.So I very much appreciate him loving and caring for our family.

We also have been blessed with my mom and sister making us dinner these last 2 nights and it has been very yummy:)Thank you for your thoughtfulness !!!!So I would have to say that there are blessings in being sick:)

Yes my hubby has been doing our laundry as well while I have been sick.Iam so thankful for him!

And this is my hubby crashed out after working hard although he is recharging to finish the huge loads of laundry on the couch lol:) He has been getting the kids dressed, and feed everyday not to mention putting them to bed at night baths and all.In times like these his cleaning obsession does come in handy and doesn't bother me as much when Iam sick compared to when Iam feeling well :)

FEAR ! ! !

There are things that people fear for some it may be spiders , pitbulls:), or heights ext for me mine is driving under certain conditions like in the dark driving makes me nervous but lately my hugest fear has been highway 12 for the last 6 or 7 months they have been fixing the road and decided it would be great to put up a white block wall!for what reason I don't know but it just scares me lol!My fear in driving by this wall is that I will hit it and then crash and hurt my kids or worse that I may cause my child to die by crashing into the wall!For most you probably are thinking "O my goodness girl" but this fear is so real to me! I go through Vacaville to get to Fairfeild when taking Lille to her therapy twice a week so I don't have to drive the highway 12.

I started this post on the 31st of Oct and after starting it I have since then have had 2 things come up that I have had fear (1)I don't like confronting people when I know I should and I have let many times go by because of it ,and I know it was wrong and the reason I know it is because Iam being selfish and only thinking of me and how it makes me feel to have to go and talk to another person instead of thinking of the other person and loving them to the point of putting ME aside!

(2)So as you know the SWINE FLU is out and about all over the news and people wearing masks at all the store!Yes this is another fear of mine because all my children have medical conditions that make them at higher risk for being hospitalized if they in deed get this flu!

Well I started getting getting sick this Sunday and I was thinking it was just hay fever!but as it started getting worse and my fever was at 102.5 I looked on line about the swine flu and started fearing I would be the cause of my children getting hospitalized or possibly the worse death!After being encouraged by my family I stopped the fleshly thoughts and went to the doctors yesterday to find out that I have a virus and the starting of pneumonia on the left side in return causes my asthma to hit a high of out of control breathing!The doctor was not convinced I had the swine flu.

I also had the opportunity to call another sister in Christ today (Nov 4Th) and the Lord brought me through the phone call and this other person took it so well and was very thankful and in return I was blessed that I was able to encourage another sister in the lord.

In the last month God has shown me alot that I didn't even see in myself but it was collecting in my heart this ugly thing of "FEAR" and worst all of it is sin to fear because I am not in anyway TRUSTING my lord that has my life in his hands and my family as well.I have no control over saving my children from death Iam called to be wise as a mother but I still have no control over my life or any one Else's life at that.It does not matter if I go through vacaville to avoid highway 12 because the Lord can allow us to get in a car crash going to vacaville!I know you get what Iam saying:)same with my kids Yes Iam getting them there flu shot and the swine flu shot as well but does that stop them from getting out of the lords timing of death where He says our days are numbered NO it doesn't!I get so frustrated at myself at times and my way of thinking!I am just so thankful to the lord that he is so faithful to show us our short comings and in that it allows me to change my heart and keep running this race toward the finish line!

I have to say Iam proud of what the Lord has done in my heart with driving to Fairfeild on highway 12 because Iam so happy to say I have been driving highway 12 for about 2 weeks now:)YEAH!!!!! Iam still working on it though lol its not all the way easy lol:)

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.In all thine ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct thy path.

Proverbs 3:5

"Do You Find Me Lovely?"

There is a little boy in a foster home and it is the home where A and J (My precious niece and nephew)had lived!before being welcomed into there family!My sister had posted on him and her experience with him and what he had asked her!In case you missed it it was something he had said to her as she was leaving with A & J for a home visit and his words were "can I come with you?" My sisters heart hurt for this little boy as she didn't even know the words to say to him she said to him"Oh sweet heart you cant" and he said back to her with his head down " why? why cant I come with you?" Iam not sure what my sister had said to him but Iam sure this little boy didn't understand all the legal stuff of Adopting and I know for sure if my sister could have she would have just token him home to have a "forever family"to love him and care for him despite all his issues he might have had in that moment!I just cant imagine the pain of the questions that run through his little mind!
In saying all of this well.... he had came to my mind when I heard this song by Shawn McDonald " Lovely?'! in fact it reminds me of all the children in foster homes waiting for "A mommy and Daddy" wondering in there own little minds "does anyone care?" or "Do you find me lovely?" I tried to put the video on here and I just cant figure it out so here are the words to the song but the song is much better then being read!If you would like go to u-tube and watch it:)So here it is!!!


Let me tell you a story



Of a little boy who had lost his way



In search for something to make it a better day,



But all he seemed to find



Was a world of hurt and pain



And a place that didn't seem to care that he'd lost his way.



So the boy began to cry.



Yes, the boy began to cry.


Does anyone love?



Does anyone care?



Is anyone out there?



That finds me lovely



That finds me lovely



That finds me lovely?


Just when the little boy had lost all hope



Well, along came a man that ushered him in.



He held him to his chest



And He said "Little boy, it's time that you rest"



He opened up His arms



And said, "I've been searching for you for some time.



Now, Little Boy, you have found a home



And now longer shall you roam"



Then the man began to cry.



Yes, the man began to cry.


Don't you know I love you?



Don't you know I care?



And I will always be here,



And I find you lovely.



Yes, I find you lovely.



Yes I find you so so lovely.



I find you lovely...



Yes, I find you lovely


"I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a" stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me, I was in prison and you visited me. Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord when was it that we did these things for you?' And the king will answer them, 'Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me.
Matthew 25: 35-45

Phillip's Farm Trip !!

Today Tony and I took the kids to Phillip's Farm to pick out some pumpkins:)The kids enjoyed seeing floppy ear bunnies and some roosters and some geese that were honking very loud at us and even bit Tony but he asked for it :)We went through tunnels made of hay and picked out pumpkins!We came home and the kids cleaned out there pumpkins and painted them!It was very fun to watch them enjoy themselves.I did take pictures at the farm but had to use a bought throw away because we found our batteries to be dead so I will post more pictures later.

Hi Everyone!!

Okay So for 3 days I have had a post and a video I want to post but my cute little computer is having issues!So in the next couple of days you will find a very over due post!Have a blessed night:)

Happy 6th Birthday Addison !!!!

October 3rd was Addi sons 6Th birthday and we celebrated it by inviting her cousins to a party at build a bear!It was alot of fun and Addison had a blast!It was very fun to see all the kids picking out there animal to stuffing it to putting a little heart in there animals!Addison loves stuffed animals and had never been to build a bear so we though it would a great day of fun for everyone!After build a bear we went to Chucky cheese to have Luch and played fun games!Then we came home too open gifts and have cup cakes hmmm yummy!!!
Addison opening gifts

mom relaxing and enjoying her grand babies

Addison opening a gift!
Kory and Trinity

washing her Kitty cat Anthony giving his cat a bath!

Mr K and Tony and Kory

hoping around the store!!

Addison has also lost her first front tooth 2 days ago and she had been working on it for a week before she decided she would listen to daddy and eat a apple and it sure did work because it made it lose enough for her to pull it out!Addison does not mess around its funny to me because she has riped out all 3 of her teeth!She get so excited about her teeth falling out maybe because she gets a treat from us when she loses them!